Now to elaborate on the title of this blog- "Attitude Adjustment". I have been SOO ready for Kallie to get here. I am very uncomfortable and it's getting tough to get around. I feel like I've been so negative. I don't remember feeling this way with Kensley. I think I have a lot of factors that have been different with this pregnancy:
-We made a HUGE move right when we found out we were expecting.
-I don't have a gym membership anywhere. I didn't have time to work out when we first moved in. Lots of things going on. And there's not many places to choose from up here!
-Kallie has been oh so sweet in laying on my sciatic nerve the entire pregnancy! If you've ever felt this pain, you know what I'm talking about when I say it's just about paralyzing! It happens mainly when I walk. So we have gone on a handful of walks because I can't last very long. At all.
-It's winter time! UGH! The fall here was absolutely BEAUTIFUL! But when winter came, it was really hard to go outside. Now that we've had record breaking snow fall, the walking trails have been covered in snow and ice and now it's melting but there's puddles EVERYWHERE and it's still FREEZING outside... so again, we are stuck inside.
So that's a list of some of my excuses. Anyways, I went to the dr. last week (35 weeks) and I was 2cm dilated and 50% effaced. This really got my hopes up. (I forget to mention- I honestlybelieve I'm further along than they think...we don't have a conception date because I was still nursing Kensley when we got pregnant) Kallie is measuring about 2-3 weeks ahead. Again, my hopes were rising. I thought I would have this baby any day! I've had a lot of labor pains- just BH mainly. I never had those with Kensley. Well, I went to the dr. yesterday (36 weeks). Found out nothing new. I was hoping to get checked again, but no. I was really bummed. My dr. said he wouldn't even think about inducing until 39 weeks. When I left the office, I was in a funk. I was wanting to get a date scheduled to be induced and wanted to find out if I had progressed any. I got neither one of those. SOOOOO---as I was thinking later in the day- I REALLY need to change my attitude. I need to enjoy this time with just Kensley while I can. It won't be much longer before Kallie makes her debut. So, from here on out I am going to STOP complaining! It's only going to make these last few weeks REALLY drag by. I've got the next couple weeks planned out- we have a few music classes to go to and a couple play dates; one of the play dates will be at my house. I'm going to suck it up and just leave it all in God's hands. Kallie isn't here yet because she isn't ready. She needs to bake a little longer. I want her to get here healthy, so I'll be patient! :)
And to end this VERY long blog..... here are a few pictures from this week.
3 comments:
I sooooo remember this funk. As a matter of fact, I can pull the blog where I wrote something parallel to to this one!
Those last few weeks are hard, and I think you have every right to be a little 'under the weather'... but you are also correct in that God's timing is best... She will be here soon!
I'll give you a few positives:
You are GORGEOUS pregnant.
You have a little more time to perfect your photography before you have another model to 'join your agency'!!
You still just have one mouth to feed, one set of hands to constantly monitor, and one nose to clean for a little longer.
I can't wait for little kallie's appearance either... but in due time!(easy for me to say!)
Maybe next week?!
Love you girly!!!
Awww- thanks Holly for your positives! :) That makes me feel better! Is it bad that I sit in bed and **hope** my water breaks?!?!? hahaha
Nope, I think it is completely normal!!
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